My Secret versus The Reality

MOVED

Rina Tan — Tue, 05 Apr 2011 16:54:06 +0000

I have left. I maybe back!

Graduation

Rina Tan — Thu, 15 Jul 2010 00:27:36 +0000

Today marks the day where everything ends. Friendships are made, Studies had completed and most importantly everything is going to change.

I love changes sometimes. Can you imagine Life without any change? Won’t it be boring?

But often, we are stuck in our comfort zone that we forget how to adapt to changes. Was just wondering these few days if I had worked enough? I thought to myself that I don’t think I had done a good job. Probably I need to reset my priorities.

And seeing the bank book depleting every single month makes me sad. Where had my money gone to? How come I don’t feel it?

WOOO!!!

Rina Tan — Tue, 22 Jun 2010 15:01:23 +0000

June Holidays

Rina Tan — Wed, 16 Jun 2010 14:55:46 +0000

I have tonnes of photographs on the computer yet I find no time in uploading them. Will be coming up with more of my Chinese Painting Photographs when I start to sort them out.

To sum it all, the June Holidays is coming to an end. And what I had done or achieved? Plenty I would say. But I seriously can’t wait for the next holidays to come. I hope the new term would mark a new beginning; whether it is career, studies or even relationships.

BORED

Rina Tan — Mon, 07 Jun 2010 14:57:32 +0000

Whenever I am bored, I would come into wordpress and start writing on this baby. It feels like an accomplishment when I started reading back the entries since Day 1. How many could really sit down and start typing your thoughts on this little space.

Actually to be truthful; I am not exactly bored. I am just empty. I don’t know why; don’t even bother asking me cause I don’t even have answers for myself.

Holidays have started and I told myself how important this holiday meant to me. To start collecting thoughts and fix them into pieces; whether its worth it or not. Don’t you think self-reflection is very crucial?

And these few days were spent meaningfully. What beats spending quality time with friends who you adore and love most? Although time spent was short, no complains cause the smiles of friends make you smile too. THANKS!

I am still on the project of renovating my little bedroom. Its time to start afresh by throwing the unwanted stuffs. As much I wished I could keep everything for memory sake, I think some things are better to let go.

Letting go and you will find freedom.

You wished you were THERE

Rina Tan — Sun, 06 Jun 2010 16:37:26 +0000

“The grass is always greener on the other side.”

I don’t know how many reasons I can come out with for myself anymore. Com’on ! Isn’t that what I had been expecting? The more you expected, the greater disappointment you have. I think this career path has not been very successful since the day I gave up on my desire course.

Oh well, Life still goes on.

So now I feel like I am a person whom we called – Sour Grapes.

You can’t have it thats why you are giving yourself reasons that it is not good.

Seriously, I think to cut it short, I am jealous, envious, angry, disappointed, lousy and sad about it. Whatever it is, I think Life has better plans for me. Yes it does!

Eyes are closing…

Rina Tan — Thu, 20 May 2010 16:39:24 +0000

But I can’t sleep.

I blamed on the supper that I just had with Mum and Dad. But the chicken cutlet is super nice, with egg some more. Hehehe!

So I am enjoying these two weeks as much as I could because come Monday would be the official day that I start work. Am really looking forward to the new environment. Not exactly new since I had been working there two years ago.

Seeing the old faces might be a good / bad issues. Whatever la!

My blog is getting boring -er and boring – er. I am planning something exciting. And since its the holidays soon, I shall come up with holidays resolution.

1st Week June – Enjoying every moment; spending quality time with my family and friends. READ: QUALITY not QUANTITY

2nd Week June – 1. Pack my room (Start combing from my wardrobe, table and the chest of drawers)
2. Check out Little Timmy’s COE
3. Start on gym-ing and swimming regime over at Aunt Jolynn’s

3rd Week June – MEETING
4th Week June – MEETING

WOW! Planning the holiday resolutions made me feel that my holidays are short. Maybe I should start everything by tomorrow. Oh well, the heart is always so willing but the flesh is forever weak.

Follow Me Through….

Rina Tan — Thu, 13 May 2010 05:22:15 +0000

Being grown up means everything has to be SHORT CUT!

http://dinosaurattacking.tumblr.com

MOLLY! You copy me sia! hahahahahahahaha!

Rina Tan — Wed, 05 May 2010 23:11:17 +0000

“Life might not be the party we hoped for, but while we are here we might as well dance.”

Often great moments catch us unaware; beautifully wrapped in what others might consider as a small one.

The show is coming to an end in two days time. I don’t know how to describe my feelings but definitely; RELIEVED.

Its not just relieved when you know that you have escaped from something bad or unlucky.

Relieved as in something heavy had been taken away from you.

I definitely am feeling so much lighter that it is counting down. I really am. I am very confused on whether am I happy or unhappy about the experience. All I can say is; Life is nothing but a contradiction.

Everyday, I put up a show

Rina Tan — Mon, 03 May 2010 05:59:39 +0000

whether it is dramatic, comedy, romantic, action or variety.

Do you loose yourself whenever you are on a show?

What happens when you are no longer the lead?

Who knows the real you when you are playing your role?

I played my role well enough to get a passed but not well enough to get me my distinction.

Just in the center of the ring of light; memorising my lines and hoping that the audience would clap.

The show is OVER. Like finally.